Listen and Respond

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about the way I communicate with Big Man. Here’s an example of a conversation that happens all the time between us:

Me: I’m trying to decide what to make for dinner. Do you have any preferences?

Big Man: No, anything sounds good to me.

Me: Are you sure?

Big Man: Yeah, it all sounds good. Just pick what sounds the best to you.

Me: I think I’d like to make tacos. How does that sound to you?

Big Man: Tacos sound great.

Me: Are you sure? Because I can pick something else if you want.

Big Man: Really, tacos sound great.

Me: OK, but just tell me if you would rather have something else.

And thus ends the rather pointless discussion of tacos. I know it’s my communication “style” that draws the conversation out forever. Apparently, I cannot ask a question and just accept Big Man’s answer the first time. I must ask him repeatedly if that is really his answer. And I’m starting to realize that this quirk of mine is rather annoying to Big Man. Now, in a case like this where the subject matter is unimportant, he does a great job of letting it slide. But when we talk about important things and I continue to make him repeat his answers to me, it makes him frustrated. Justifiably so.

As I have been thinking about my habit of insisting Big Man answer the same question multiple times, I’ve realized that while I don’t do this intentionally, it is a consistant pattern. I think back and realize I have had this habit for as long as I can remember. I don’t even know when or why it started. I can’t think of anyone I know (like my parents or close friends) from whom I might have learned this. And I don’t think I have a secret desire to host “Who Wants To Be a Millionaire” (Is that your final answer?)

I think initially it was just an attempt to be polite, to defer to the other person’s preference. But it has become a habit now that I repeatedly ask the same question regardless of the answer. And while the initial motivation behind this habit may have been good, it has far outlived its usefulness. If I’m really honest and think about the way I converse with Big Man, it is pretty disrespectful to insist that he answer the same question multiple times. It comes across as either 1) I didn’t listen the first time he answered, or 2) I heard him but didn’t believe he was telling the truth. Both of those options are insulting. Clearly this habit is one I need to break.

So my big personal project currently is to fix this communication issue. I’ve been consciously working on this for the last couple weeks and honestly I’m having a really hard time with it. I fact, I don’t know that I have made any measurable progress at all. I doubt Big Man has noticed a difference. The biggest victory I can claim is that I now recognize what I’m saying at the first repeat, and catch myself before asking a third or forth time. But even still I don’t always catch it , and I haven’t yet changed enough to break the pattern.

So I guess this post is more about a failure that I’m trying to fix more than a victory. But I hope that by writing about it I’ll have more accountability, and maybe my experience will be helpful to someone else. Overall, I know that I can’t fix this by myself. It is my responsibility to do my best, but I definitely need Christ’s help. So I’m praying that I will be conscious about what I’m saying all the time. That I won’t just speak out of habit, but that my words would be good and purposeful.

I think that as this part of my journey to be a better wife unfolds, I’ll discover some other things about how I relate to Big Man. There will probably be a follow-on post sometime in the future. I’m know by consciously working on speaking and responding better, there will be more harmony and fewer miscommunications between Big Man and me. Which can only be a good thing. Right?

(See, I only asked once!)

Sample Saturday

Good Morning. Today is an extra-special Saturday because tomorrow is Resurrection Sunday! I hope you and your family enjoy celebrating.

Kisses and Kiddos

The Origin of a Spouse Date Night – The Romantic Vineyard shares this very creative idea for a date centered around your spouse’s hometown. What a fun alternative to dinner and a movie!

Surprise Him! – Straight to the point advice from The Generous Wife.

I Crave A Successful Birthday Party for My Son – This beautiful post over at mamacravings has some fun party ideas and a great reminder about prioritizing the things that really matter.

Yumminess

Peanut Butter and Jelly Coffee Cake – This breakfast treat from Two Peas & Their Pod might just be the perfect blend of peanut butter, jelly, and streusel topping.

Italian Easter Bread – I’ve always wondered how to make one of those beautiful braided loaves with the dyed eggs on top, and now I can thanks to this post over at Pennies on a Platter.

Grapefruit and Avocado Guacamole - This dip over at The Curvy Carrot sounds really interesting, and the color combination is beautiful!

Just for Fun and Giggles

Geeky Easter Eggs – Here’s a fun collection of geek-inspired Easter Eggs compiled by Jen over at Epbot. You can also click here to see her own awesome, Portal-inspired Easter Eggs.

The 10 Commandments of Chick-Fil-A – Stuff Christians Like has the perfect list of unwritten rules for enjoying Chick-Fil-A. I’m surprised “Eat More Chicken” isn’t one of them.

And for those of you who wonder what happened to the dinosaurs, there is this:

This is how the dinosaurs really went extinct...

Enjoy your weekend!

Good Friday

Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

~Isaiah 53:4-5 (KJV)